I've always been quiet and don't talk much. I'm highly introverted and used to be self-conscious of how I talk; because of this, I was made fun of a lot when I was younger. I have a learning disability and will sometimes confuse words or stutter. I have come a long way and don't worry about if I trip up my words anymore and even play it off. But, the thing is, I struggle to keep a conversation going. I don't know how people just…talk? I despise small talk, it's agonizing to me, but no matter how much I try I cannot continue the conversation. It's weird because I can talk for hours about the stupidest thing (definitely think that's the introvert in me), but actually keeping the conversation well paced is something I fail at every time.
However, when it comes to written forms of communication, I can keep the conversation going just fine. Even if its quick back-and-forth texting. I have no issues.
It's frustrating, because I feel when someone talks to me in real life, I throw them off by not being the same as how I come through in written communication.
I can write and even think conversations in my head flawlessly, but when it comes to face-to-face verbal communication, it's like my mind glitches and I become an imbecile. I don't know if it has to do with my learning disability or not. I feel like such a boring conversation killer 😩
Just wanted to share and get it off my chest as school started back up again. I feel like such a misfit. Does anyone else have similar situations or are there any tricks I can do to get better?
Thanks!