I have quiet a few friends and we are a group of 9 but it's easy to notice small changes in people towards you. There's an introverted friend of mine that I wanna be good friends with, but she prefers someone more. People always tend to like me more at first, and that's because I stay conscious of saying the right things and appearing confident. That however, gets exhausting real fast and I always revert to my old ways. That makes people rely on me a little less. I also start using filler talk. I've just always had this unconfident and unsure way of speaking but it's so hard to actually change. Sometimes, I just crave some sort of novelty that I am not sure of.