Yes I know, deep one.
Without the whole backstory, grew up in conditions that didn't exactly provide emotional support to create a high self esteem system/confidence and so on. Is what it is!
I feel like I'm finally beginning to go easier on myself at 30, which feels so late but at the end of the day I'm single/no kids and no real connections at this point (I moved city not long ago to start fresh, still have a few closer friends via phone). I mention that as at least I can learn to love myself before starting my own family.
Somatic exercises have been a help so far. Noticing when a negative reactionary behaviour pops up, in the nervous system almost and just noticing it and realising I am not this thing. It was just a past moment. It makes me realise I'm OK right now. I have a journey ahead of me so if anyone has any recommendations on what can help shape some self love?