Hi, all!
So, to start out, let me give you some context. I'm a sophomore in college, but I don't have my friend group yet. I know you're typically supposed to socialize a ton in freshman year, so then you can have your people the following year. However, I just couldn't at the time because I was busy getting over a heartbreak, from a genuinely close friend. (or so I thought)
So I wasn't the most social person. I'd actually actively go out of my way to avoid people, to ignore them, and spend time on my own. I told myself I was focusing on my goals, being myself (I'm kinda an introvert) and healing, but I think I kinda traded one demon for another.
Now, this year, I'm trying to go out and meet people, but most seem relatively opposed to friendships.
So essentially,
I'm trying to find a friend group as a sophomore, but
I have a rep for being an anti social, narcissitic, arrogant loner
All of the relationships that I do have are still in the beginning stages, like its still awkward, in a way
I'm kinda needy, now. Because I've been alone for so long, and I genuinely kinda hate it.
Like honestly, if I had to choose between doing something that would give me aura, and doing something that involved genuine human connection, I'm choosing genuine human connection
Fuck aura.
But yeah, that's what I'm struggling with
Anyone have any ideas?