Hi, I’m not really sure where or how to ask for advice because it’s pretty embarrassing. Well, not really. I’m 26F and i took a 2 year act of celibacy. Not because i didn’t want to have sex, but because i just had no interest in hookups anymore and my ex had made me feel very insecure. I was with him for 3 years and our sex life was HORRIBLE. I was so lonely i just dealt with it. But these last 2 years have actually been amazing for me and my self development. That being said tho, it’s probably been a solid 5/6 years that I’ve had good sex, or remember really feeling like my needs were involved.
Untillllll i met my coworker 😅 He started working at my job a little under a year ago and we’ve always had some banter, it’s gotten pretty flirty over the last few months but i was too nervous to initiate anything. Finally, he invited me over and i said fuck it. I went over, we smoked and when he kissed me i kind of had a mini panic attack and told him all about why I’m insecure and that i don’t think i want a relationship blahblah. He sat and listened to me and just cuddled me. I went home after that.
The next day, he texts me and says he hopes nothing was uncomfortable and i said no not at all, and idk something in me sparked with him saying that and i was like yeah im gonna go back over and tear his clothes off. And i did. And it was fucking unreal. And it was some of the best sex that i can remember. This was literally last night and my cooter feels so sore in the best way I’m about to go back over tomorrow when we get done work.
So, i need advise in how to please him back. Also feel like i should mention that ive alwaysss been insecure of men going down on me, and i felt comfortable enough for him to eat me like i was thanksgiving dinner. It was great. But i realllly wanna reciprocate, im really only semi decent with head, but i want to know some positions i can put him in or vice versa that will show adequate appreciation for him from myself and my hoo-ha. Thank you and please help 😭 i was literally so nervous i felt like a virgin.