I started my 12th grade about a week ago and right now my group is kind of the same as it was in 11th, im trying to make a friend out of a class mate who knows me but im handling it like shit and im freaking out, im texting her and she seems nice, but she's better friends with this lesbian girl( they aren't a couple, just friends) and they have more of a vibe with these other 2 artsy kids that I think judge me and dont pay me much atencion( some awkward thing that happened long ago thats not relevant right now) and i see then laughing all the time and whispering and connecting and im incapable of having any sort of reaction like that, im texting this girl rn and I've done it so poorly, I tried to have that fake dramatic extrovert energy that people use to vibe or dazzle or whatever and try and get into gossiping witch failed like dog shit, then I tried to be lowkey honest and tell her I struggle bc of the batman tragic and depressing thing that happened to me and gave me this severe disability, I just want friends that can care about me and can make laugh and chill and go to concerts and play video games, and this is all in Puerto Rico and I suck even worse at trying to do all this in spanish, so not many options there even though im friking puertorican