I f21 have recently been starting to feel extremely insecure when it comes to mastrubation and sex with my bf m26
I know I'm not the ONLY woman to experience the issues I'm having but yet I feel so alone, over the years my libido has been up and down due to being on medication to help with my bpd, to counter act it I have found weed really helps …….. but as of this current moment my brain wants to go and feel that pleasure I am eager and excited but yet when it comes time to actually execute the plan even by myself it takes a while with a vibrator up to 15 minutes before I even come CLOSE to reaching an orgasm, I love my boyfriend we have such a great healthy exciting sex life I feel safe around him so that's not the issue
When we try to engage with one another I start to feel guilty….. it takes me longer to get wet, it takes me longer to cum if I even cum at all and it really upsets me to the point I actually sometimes get so worked up I cry which is so stupid – we try toys and other things but still I can't seem to get there all the time and I know that's all he wants to do is get me to feel good as much as he does
If there's any tricks or tips I am open to trying almost anything