From classrooms, to jobs, to school extracurriculars, clubs, and even friend groups, i very rarely feel like I belong anywhere. This has been the norm for me ever since ELEMENTARY SCHOOL, maybe even pre-K. It's to the point where I feel like there's genuinely something wrong with me. In almost every setting, I feel that I have never been part of the "in-group", and that my voice is stifled, ignored, and simply cast to the side. Though, whenever I try to fit in, I feel like I'm just roleplaying as someone who cares. Feeling disconnected makes putting effort feel fake and unnatural, and it leads to me not wanting to even try.
in summary, i don't feel connected to any group i'm in, nor do i feel the desire to connect because it feels unnatural. help 💔