I remember when I was a kid, before puberty, maybe as a byproduct of innocence and unadulterated curiosity, I had a ton of friends and LOVED being social. Then as time went on and I grew older that all went downhill so quickly. By the time I was 12 I felt traumatized on a daily basis by just showing up to school. I’ve grown to accept this at 25 now, but sometimes I wonder, is it possible, through enough devotion, to actually enjoy being social again? I feel like as I’ve gotten older, I’ve become way more insecure and closed off. People just seem like a risk to me. I’ve had fun times as an adult (drinking responsibly helps) and it makes me sad that j feel like sometimes that’s not something I can experience regularly or that I deserve. Maybe it’s about just appreciating the small interactions throughout each day