So basically I'm not sure if I've ever orgasmed or not. I've heard a lot of people say that you would know, but I'm really not sure because what I've experienced has fit some definitions but not others.
Basically, when I use a vibrator (I've never had partnered sex even though I'm in my mid 20s) I can get to a point when my muscles are spasming, especially in my vagina and a bit in my legs. Sometimes it takes longer, but lately getting to this point has been very quickly, especially when I use one with clit suction.
But I'm not sure if this counts as an orgasm. It doesn't feel like a release, or satisfaction, really, just a continuation of the tension but with more involuntary muscle movements. It does feel really intense, and a lot of times I have to stop the stimulation because of that intensity, but I wouldn't necessarily call it super pleasurable, just intense. So I don't know.
Can you have those contractions on your way to an orgasm, or are they in themselves an orgasm? Either way, does anyone have any tips for how to make it better? I never really feel satisfied after masturbating, but would like to. I usually just stop when it's too intense or when I get bored. Any thoughts would be appreciated.
Edit: I thought I should mention that I am on an SSRI and birth control for PMDD issues, could this be having an impact?
Edit 2: Please I would only like advice from other women/people who have the same anatomy as me! I just feel more comfortable talking to people who have the same processes and physical experiences down there