I’m genuinely so awful at making friends. I’ll always say that I’m lonely and I wish someone cared about me but at the same time, I don’t put much effort into maintaining friendships. I’m constantly switching between victimizing myself and telling myself it’s all my fault. I’m currently in my college orientation and I get so jealous seeing big groups of friends already formed, talking like they’ve always known each other. I’ve made one “friend” but honestly I feel no connection with them. I feel lost and upset. I’ll wanna hang with people then get annoyed that they want to hang with me. What’s wrong with me? Why am I like this? I just want to be able to make friends and actually keep friends. I wish I could have a best friend. Please help?