Is it wrong to outgrow my marriage?
I (36f) have outgrown my 17 years of marriage. I met my husband when we were 17 and now we are 36 with 4 children. My husband has some habit that I can’t stand, the issue is he had that when I met him but I thought I could change him. He even told me he was going to let it go for my sake! But he keeps returning back and forth and I’m tired! Over the years there was also infidelities from him in our marriage and I kept forgiving him. I was a stayed at home mom and he work, there was also financial abuse as well. We started a business together, we lost the business because of his friend. He messed up by credit because he used my names to get loans and don’t pay it. When I’m pregnant with our babies he doesn’t help me with the babies because he said he worked so the babies are my responsibility along with the housework. He plays video games all day when he gets home from work! Our last baby is 3 now and I started working and I’m trying to go back to school for a higher education so I can stand on my own feet. I just recently told him I want a divorce and he says he is sorry for everything he will changed. He is on day 3 of repentance he says, and he started fast and praying! But it has always been this way with him, every time I want to leave he will suck me back in my doing the right things. He claims we are soulmates and he can’t see himself without me. He doesn’t want any woman but me. I can’t stand him anymore. I can no longer see myself with him! I’m done but he says we are Christian and God hate divorce! He says he is not going to sign the divorce papers if i give him one. He also gathers the children and tells them im trying to break our family and makes the children cry!! Someone please help im feeling so stuck!! Any genuine advice me?