hello i'm a second year student in university and just turned 19. my social life back in high school was not fantastic. i never got invited to parties and my classmates were assholes in general. things are very different in college. i've been in and out of friend groups because i've never really felt like i've found my place here with the students here. i know it's quality over quantity and i am very grateful for the one girl who has stuck with me since day 1. but she has her own individual friends as well. the thing is, i know a lot of people but whenever i try interacting with someone, they never take interest in me or take interest to keep things going. ive made initiatives many times but rejection is something that has become so normal for me in friendships that i'm just starting to give up.
i know a lot of people but i'm not friends with any. the few girls i know including my friend are in such popular demand. when im with her, 15 different people interrupt us to talk to her. i'm not jealous but i wish that things like that would happen to me as well. i don't know if i give off a weird aura for people to not like me because i genuinely just want to make 2-3 good friends here instead of relying on just one person. but the more and more im rejected by people, the more im afraid to keep trying to interact. i just look weird and desperate.