Alright last post I made was deleted because it felt more like a rant so i'll try to get straight to the point and the issue at hand.
Im about to start my second to last year of high school and with a bit of self reflection I felt like ive wasted these years of my youth.
Ever since the start of high school ive been ostracized and made fun of by my classmates behind my back because i give off that weird kid vibe, in conversations i either just exist in the room or I try to comment and make people uncorfomtable, i act like a dog starved for attention and try to please people so that they would like me, often failing because im anxious and don't express myself well.
I don't like to show my true self because of fear of being ridiculed and because i don't set boundaries im often taken advantage of by people.
Ive tried to branch out and find interests but it's hard for me to even take interest in hobbies and also find the time to dedicate myself to them because i basically just spend my time studying.
Yeah I know it's quite the baggage but I wanted to know if soneone could offer at least some words of encouragement for a lost guy.
Ps:im not english so sorry for spelling mistakes.