For as long as I remember, I haven’t been interested in sex as a topic. Even sfw romance like kissing, hand holding, and hugging, especially in public, has long been viscerally uncomfortable to talk about or think about. In social settings, I don’t even weigh in on conversations about intercourse. That said, I have romantic and physical urges at a normal ish rate. Discussing the topic outside of relationships makes me feel incredibly uncomfortable, and I really struggle to “get into” anything physical because I have a constant worry about something. It’s like I desperately want any physical connection, but I can’t ask or talk about it, and when I do finally have that connection, it’s almost like I’m ashamed of it. Can anyone explain to me what’s going on? I really need some guidance so I can be happy in a future relationship.