Thsi whole thing is extremely humiliating but essentially last night slept with a guy while I was rather drunk and I vomited a little on his dick.
We’ve fucked three times now so I know he likes to be rough with me, but this time he was particularly forceful, saying he wanted to give me a facial and saying he’s clean so he doesn’t have to use a condom. But I haven’t blown anyone without a condom before and turns out it’s a lot different. He held me down far too much. I have a small mouth, he knows I gag easily. It’s easy to tell when I want off. But he kept holding and shoving my head and so when he finally let me go, a little vomit just spilled out of my mouth.
I was in shock and a little too tipsy so we just didn’t really acknowledge it, and then he was pretty limp the whole time and left quickly. He said it was just ‘work stress’ but I find that hard to believe when we were sitting in the smell of my vomit the whole time.
Now I’ve spent the day being fucking followed by the stink of vomit even though I showered thoroughly and it’s felt like I’m floating inside my own brain, like my eyes are very very far away. I smelt something earlier that smelled like him and I gagged and it’s all just very over dramatic.
I’m scared it’s ruined my confidence, and now all I can think is that I’m going to have to fuck him again so the last thing he remembers of fucking me isn’t me throwing up. Please tell me I’m making too much of it 😅