I’m 26 years old, and I’ve never been in a relationship. I’ve always believed in saving my virginity for my future husband, and that’s something that’s really important to me. But lately, the curiosity about what sex actually feels like is starting to eat away at me. I’ve tried exploring on my own (playing clitoris and recently started inserting a finger) to get a better understanding, but I still feel like something’s missing. There’s a part of me that really wants to experience it with someone else, just to know what it’s like, but the thought of actually doing it makes me nervous.
On top of that, I’ve always felt insecure about the way my vagina looks. It’s something I’ve always been self-conscious about, and it’s holding me back even more from feeling comfortable about being intimate with someone. I don’t want to rush into anything, but I also don’t want my curiosity to get the best of me. I’m just looking for advice on how to navigate this — how to stay true to my values while dealing with the overwhelming curiosity and insecurities I’m facing. How do I deal with these feelings and still feel confident in myself, especially when I don’t know what to expect?
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I’m 26 years old, and I’ve never been in a relationship. I’ve always believed in saving my virginity for my future husband, and that’s something that’s really important to me. But lately, the curiosity about what sex actually feels like is starting to eat away at me. I’ve tried exploring on my own (playing clitoris and recently started inserting a finger) to get a better understanding, but I still feel like something’s missing. There’s a part of me that really wants to experience it with someone else, just to know what it’s like, but the thought of actually doing it makes me nervous.
On top of that, I’ve always felt insecure about the way my vagina looks. It’s something I’ve always been self-conscious about, and it’s holding me back even more from feeling comfortable about being intimate with someone. I don’t want to rush into anything, but I also don’t want my curiosity to get the best of me. I’m just looking for advice on how to navigate this — how to stay true to my values while dealing with the overwhelming curiosity and insecurities I’m facing. How do I deal with these feelings and still feel confident in myself, especially when I don’t know what to expect?
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Values can change throughout a lifetime. People were having sex way before the idea of “saving yourself” was ever a concept. It’s at the very core of our species. You are not wrong for being curious about it.
For your other concerns, no mentally stable mature man is going to make you feel bad for the appearance of your vagina. It’s out of your control and so long as you’re clean you will be fine.
Furthermore you can have these curious thoughts for as long as you want. There is no pressure to decide right now what you want to do. You might decide to have sex with someone, you might not.
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>I’ve always felt insecure about the way my vagina looks
I was too when I was young. Then I started having sex and discovered that partners did not care how it looked at all and were extremely enthusiastic. Vulvas naturally differ a lot from each other, and it’s not really a big deal. They come in all shapes and sizes. You’ll be fine, I wouldn’t worry about it.
(I can’t advise you on your values, because I’ve never had a desire to wait for marriage so I can’t really relate to that dilemma. But hopefully someone else will have useful insights into that thought process.)
Your vagina is your vagina, it’s not going to change. Honestly I’m either way too close with my mouth over it for my eyes to focus, or the view is obscured during penetrative sex. I’m not particularly concerned with the aesthetics of a pussy, rather if a person is welcoming me to their pussy, we are way past looks changing feelings.
Also I you’d push you on why it’s personally important to save yourself. It’s fine is it something you want to do, but it should be rooted in your identity not society or the churches direction.
You can also explore yourself for pleasure. Get a dildo that isn’t a detailed penis and a vibrator. Exploring your body doesn’t have to involve lust. (Though lust and eroticism do enhance it)
There’s no harm in saving it for marriage, you do you. But if u feel insecure about your vagina, try masturbating or start using toys, will help you see what wonders your vagina can do and how beautiful it can make u feel
I waited until I felt ready and stayed true to my own values, and I completely get the curiosity part. I spent a lot of time exploring myself first, which helped me understand what I liked and made me more confident about my body. It’s normal to feel nervous and insecure, but learning to enjoy your own body without judgment can make the first experience with someone else feel safer and more meaningful.
I too, carried this belief. I would compromise with yourself. “I will save myself for my….. partner”. I kept my concious clean because I was in love, at the very least.
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You’ll be saying this in 5yrs.
There’s no right answer here for you just advises by experiences hopefully. Im personally think you lossing out on experiences because no man will appreciate enough this.
This is for every female. We men love every s
ape and look of vagina. There is no bad looking vagina.Have at least few relationships before marriage just to know for reference.
You’re not saving your virginity, you’re wasting your sexual life, you are making the first time with your future husband less pleasant. Nothing is better than a girl who knows what she likes in bed, how to move, how to express her feelings. All things you’ll learn only by having sex.
Go have sex.
I think most men who care about virginity or body count who aren’t insecure are more concerned about your attitude towards your own value and your mental health.
Having lots of sex because you need validation from others is a red flag. Having sex because you feel safe, enjoy someone’s company and value your own pleasure is cool.
Find someone who might be your future husband because he values you, makes you feel safe, laughs with you and have sex with them. It’s important to try it before you sign up to life with someone.