Greetings, This is the first time i'm posting something on reddit. I hope y'all here can help me.
I (24M) went through a really bad split with my ex and since then, My social skills have become 0. I cannot hold conversation with people, My head just goes blank and i start stuttering. I become very awkward talking in front of classmates and just sit alone by myself. And when i do talk to people, i say stuff which isn't like me to say. I mean i feel as if i'm being fake for the sake of a conversation. Even before i started Uni again, I used to attend my group meetups and just be on my phone since what the group talks about isn't interesting to me. My parents tell me to talk to people for me to leave this bubble i'm trapped in. I used to be a very vocal person before, but now i just keep to myself even when i'm with my parents. At family gatherings too, I just stay on my phone and don't talk at all. And when i do, I later feel i'm not being myself. it's like i don't even know myself anymore. My classmates in Uni don't talk to me and when i try talking to them, They answer in 2-3 lines and i just say okay and leave, because i feel they answer in a disrespectful way since they'd answer while keeping their eyes on their devices. At work, I can answer and talk properly, I feel it's because i have to role to play while i'm working. Because of my non existent social skills, I have no friends and i feel really lonely. So i just talk to my guildmembers from games. But those conversations are just game related. I want to talk to someone about life, Like what i'm feeling inside.