I haven't had a romantic or sexual partner in a few months, and I've been super upset and worked up about it, like every time I wake up in the morning, I'm wet. Whenever someone compliments me at work, it goes way over my head, and I feel super ashamed about it. I miss being used and praised by someone. I've always been super dependent on others, especially when it involves sex. I just miss it. I might sound like a loser, but I really miss being fucked and told how good I am. I've been trying to focus on myself and attend therapy more, because this mindset isn't exactly healthy for me. It started as just a turn on for me, but it became more intense as time went on. It's gotten to the point where it's really all I can think about and want in life. I would quite literally get on my knees and beg to be someone's toy. Just to feel used and loved, and I still will.