Hi everyone I’m 22F, I really need some perspective because I feel very conflicted.
There’s this guy in my class. We’ve never actually talked, but since we’re in the same class, we sometimes pass by each other. He has a group of 4–5 friends, and they act weird when I’m around. One of them (sometimes him) calls me abusive names or other things whenever I walk by. It feels like teasing, but it’s disrespectful and hurtful.
The confusing part is — I feel strangely attracted to him. I know logically this is wrong and toxic, but emotionally I feel pulled toward him, almost like I’m falling in love. I hate that about myself and I want to change, but I don’t know why I’m like this.
Has anyone else experienced something like this? Why do I feel drawn to someone who mistreats me, and how can I break this pattern before it gets worse?
TL;DR: Guy in my class disrespects me and calls me names. Even though I know it’s wrong, I feel attracted to him. Why is this happening and how do I stop it?