I got an email from a grammar school regarding my GCSE results a couple days ago and it stated that I'd been rejected. I'm really upset about it because I desperately wanted to go there and I still haven't told my parents about it because they're so confident that I'd get in.
My boyfriend and I were talking about colleges via text and then I showed him the rejection email, but he just laughed. Literally: "pahhhhh hahahahahaha", followed by a laughing gif. I was expecting some sort of comfort, but laughing?? When he got his results, he got a lot of Grade 6s (which is still good!!), he felt down so I was trying to comfort him, despite the fact that he thought I was lying. And even when he told me he got a place at his college and was able to take computer science, I congratulated him. I don’t understand how hard it is to just reciprocate basic consolation? Is it really that difficult?
We've been together for almost a year and he's been like this for a while, so I wasn't really expecting anything else, but before we got our results, I hadn't spoken to him for half a week because I felt ill due to stress about results day. I messaged him the day before it, about why I'd been quiet since he didn’t reach out, and it seemed like he changed a little. He seemed more caring, but after this I guess I was a little naive.
I keep thinking this way. I keep thinking that when he's just a little nice, it'll last, but it doesn't and it just hurts because it feels like I can't talk to him about anything because I don't know how he's going to react. I don't feel comfortable opening up to my parents about things and I don’t really have any friends (they all fell out a couple days before my birthday), so the fact that I can't speak to anyone and have to keep it to myself makes me feel alone. But he feels like the only friend I have, so despite what he does, I still find ways to enjoy his company or talking to him, therefore I'm really struggling to find a way to let go.
There is more I'd like to share but it'd be off-topic to this post so I won't.
TL;DR: I told my boyfriend I've been rejected from my dream college and he laughed at me, whereas when he felt down about his exam results I comforted him, and when he got into his college, I congratulated him. I don’t understand why he behaves in this way and struggles to give basic consolation when it's obvious that one needs it.