I was in a very emotionally abusive and manipulative relationship for the better part of my teen years and early 20s and was told often that I wasn’t attractive nor was I worthy of having sex with. Now I’m finding it hard to not be extremely anxious during sex without thinking my current partner (who is unbelievably amazing and reassuring me constantly) may believe I am not attractive without openly saying it.
I know that this isn’t the case logically and I know that my partner loves me and finds me attractive, it’s just hard to get excited about sex because of my feelings of physical inadequacy. Does anyone have any advice on how to improve these feelings? I have been actively in therapy and have been doing worksheets to build self worth.