I don’t really know why I’m posting here, but this is something I’m going to bring up to my counselor the next time I meet with her
My husband has done a couple of things I consider cheating, but it wasn’t a full blown affair and he didn’t actually get with anyone. I can tell the interest was there when we were going through some rough patches.
He is an amazing guy I can go on for hours talking about him. He’s also an amazing provider I’m very lucky to have that for my family. The only thing is I have a hard time getting over these 2 things he’s done. I think it was because it happened postpartum when I was in the throes of PPD (and I fought for my life right after the delivery of my baby) and again late into my second pregnancy. I couldn’t quite process at the time being pregnant now I finally feel like I can. Is it a bad thing that it almost feels like a deal breaker for me? It doesn’t feel justified for me to feel or even think that way but I can’t help but feel like I’m not enough or that I’ll ever be enough. I can’t help but feel betrayed. I know he’s trying to gain my trust back and has shown remorse but it’s been broken twice when I was at my most vulnerable so it makes it really hard.