Hi everyone. I'm 30F, single for almost 3 years. I'd like to get your opinions about the following.
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Vaginismus / Low ovaries. Everytime there's a penetration, the inside of my vagina starts to hurt that me and my ex had to stop. Always. We even did different position but its still the same.
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Sex drive. I easily get lose my sex drive once I cum. Like even in the middle of having sex, as long as I'm done, I'm starting to lose my libido.
My ex honestly gave me trauma unknowingly because of these. He always get disppointed during our sex and gave me silent treatment after that. Or guilt tripping. Or gaslighting. Now, it made me too conscious to be in a relationship again. The last time I even had sex was March 2022. Sometimes I wonder if I could just find a f*ck buddy to meet my sexual desires. There's a lot of things I still want to experience in sex! But I'm too conservative to do that so I know its impossible.
Any advise?