We are formally 2.5 years old, a one-year-old daughter.
I don't feel desire for him, sometimes I think it's still because of him postpartum, they say this lasts up to 2 years, but I also think this is a result of so much abuse from him towards me.
My pregnancy was the worst, I saw him hugging and clinging to another woman, in the middle of my father-in-law's funeral, he constantly yelled at me and told me to go to work (already in the 3rd trimester), having just given birth, he got angry because I didn't make food while he was bathing (2nd postpartum and with a cesarean section), he always has me without money because there isn't any for me but packages arrive at home every day, and not to mention not paternal, I tried to start businesses that sabotaged me because I don't need to work Yes, he gives me shelter and food, but I have practically kept the entire relationship locked up.
He has only been being nice for a few days and he thinks that this will make up for bad months and I am going to let him down, sometimes if he manages to make me feel guilty.
And no, now it is not an option to separate. I just don't want to feel committed to having sex with someone who doesn't take care of me emotionally.