Backstory: me and my husband have been married for almost 10 years. In the first years of our marriage and towards the middle my husband used to follow women accounts and like girls photos on social media. After confronting him about it and telling him how much it hurt, he stopped. Well I had to confront him twice. The first time he stopped and then I caught him again. It’s been a couple of years and I do believe he has stopped. I haven’t seen anything of that sort anymore and he also deactivated some social media accounts.
I have also seen him check out other women in front of me. The last time I seen him do it was about 2 years ago. That last time, I confronted him and told him that it really hurt me that he needed to please stop because it really shatters me. As his wife, I felt horrible and self conscious in front of other beautiful women. Mind you, I’ve NEVER felt like that before. I’m not a person that has low self esteem.
Fast forward to today, I still hold on to it. I promised myself to never look his way when there are very attractive women just so that I don’t see him doing it. I don’t know if he still does it but it bothers and hurt me till this date. If I bring it up, he lets me talk but doesn’t say much. He has said he feels ashamed and that he’s sorry but that’s about it. Idk what to do to take this feeling away. I hate that I feel so self conscious and like I’m not enough for him. Does anyone have any advice?