i’ve (f20) made a post about this before on this throwaway but i’m losing it right now. yesterday i saw this guy i’ve been seeing and we made out and stuff and things got kind of heavy and he gave me a hickey on my neck. i’ve never gotten one before and i feel so guilty about it. he asked to touch me and stuff and i froze up and started freaking out and i felt like i was gonna cry or run away. i told him ive never done anything past kissing and he was cool about it but now i cant look in the mirror without feeling disgusted with myself. for context i was raised catholic (im not at all anymore) and i have ocd so i think that has a lot to do with it but im losing my mind and i also liked it a lot and wanted to go further and its making me feel worse. i feel like a slut or something and like i was giving parts of myself i’m supposed to keep hidden away. please help im freaking out