I mean like literally sleeping.
I feel so run down and burned out.
A previous post I posted had suggestions that my husband may have adhd. We always have to do what my husband wants, he would tell you it's what I want but the thing is if we do what he wants we do it, if it's my want it's always misdirected by him and his wants. He doesn't understand that though.
I have bad allergies and asthma, I take medications for this at bedtime.
My husbands idea of life is that we get home and food is ready, we eat, he watches tv, he showers, and maybe then we do a family thing and then finally bed.
This never happens it's usually my husband cooking because the guy eats a lot and I never can keep up with his appetite, I sit with our daughter, I clean up after, we do a family thing, he showers, then tv for him or he tries to put our daughter to bed which is difficult and we all maybe get to sleep at 10.
What annoys me though is at 10 I may have to shower because he can't get our daughter to sleep, and then I crawl into bed and try to destress from the toddler situation and he wants something from me every single freakin night.
I told him my expectation is once a week which does skip during my time of month. He doesn't really except my expectation on that because it leaves him possibly going 3 weeks without then.
I don't do anything other than traditional. I have tmj issues is why. I need braces but we can't afford them.
Him not being respectful or understanding really makes me resent him.
I don't really care for sex because I miscarried 4 months ago and still feel like I am adjusting to my cycle.
We don't get any time together alone because my mom gets very limited time off and she's the only one we have to watch our daughter.
If we don't and honestly even if we do, he still picks on me throughout the whole freakin night. He rubs my butt and thighs, sometimes he tries to make out with me, often he jerks off.
I'm tired of it, it disrupts my sleep. I told him last night before bed I had a migraine and definitely didn't want to be bothered, that I need sleep. And he still does this.
He feels I don't love him and as much as I do in certain aspects, I really don't love how insensitive or disregarding he is of me and I can't do anything about it.
He thinks this is normal but I don't think the need for that time every night or not being able to peacefully sleep next to your spouse night after night for 4 years is normal.
I have recently told him he needs to wash the dishes at night, which I am surprised he hasn't thrown a tantrum about, and he has been helping me with the laundry.
I only am asking him to do this because I am going to be at home more soon as my daughter is going to pre k and we will have time to cook meals and bake at home so in the evening meal will be made, family time and then my daughter gets her bath and bedtime at the right time.
I am hoping my sil will babysit for us once a week in the evening and we can have an evening date night.
If not I will still pursue finding another babysitter for that.