I've finally had my last straw today and I need to do something about the way I am. I don't know how long I've been like this but it feels like my whole life.
It's like I don't realize how I sound. I speak as I think and that's a habit I picked up when I was really young and it let's me carry a lot of conversation. But when I'm around anybody I care about, sometimes, I can just say some crap and it hurts them. And a new friend of mine won't even tell me what I did to upset them this time, and, I can't remember what it was since it was a week ago. I'm tired of hurting my friends. I'm tired of hurting my family. Any advice I can do to focus on improving myself is appreciated. I fight hard to get what I want but it's difficult to change something I'm not even aware of.
I asked my friend who's known me for 7 years to list some of my bad qualities and they said "Clingy, nosey, you make assumptions, you expect more than you give sometimes, closed minded, almost coward like when it comes to arguing, don’t know how to read a room sometimes, you’ll just insert yourself randomly in things you don’t have to be in, you make others uncomfortable pretty often but that also kinda ties in with not being able to read a room ,, you don’t think before you speak a lot of the time, you’ll blurt stuff when you’ve been asked to keep said thing on the down low OR it’s just heavily implied to not mention it,, you can’t really put yourself in other people’s shoes,,, you’ll give negative opinions on things people didn’t ask your feedback for"
I hope this gives anybody reading an idea who I am. Please help.