I’ve been in and out of therapy. Been on antidepressants too. All of this from the age of 18.
Being 30 however has been blessing. It’s like I’m more awake. More self aware. Less self conscious and anxious or depressed. But it’s not to say that I still don’t have issues mentally in my day to day life.
But something I’ve been thinking about a lot is therapy. I’m at point in my life i think therapy is useless. After being with multiple therapists from 18 till now for various reasons.
Looking back in retrospect, it has been helpful. And it’s given me tools to use to aid me whenever I feel like I’m spiralling.
But at this age. I feel like whenever I go therapy. I have to sit through 2-3 sessions of Deja Vu. Like anytime I put myself through therapy. They keep repeating things I’ve already heard. Exercises and tools I already know. I sit there grinding my teeth at the fact that, I already know all this information.
What makes it worse for me as well. Is that I’ve noticed that nearly all the therapists give “Reddit” advice. While I’ve been a Reddit user for over a decade. Any advice I’ve heard from Redditors. Strangely is regurgitated from my therapist. And not even the same therapist. Different ones. For different issues.
I’m at a point were I avoid therapy. Because anytime I feel like I go to them with an issue. Tell them, “hey I tried this exercise or used this tool my previous therapist told me to use. It’s kinda not working for me anymore.” They get like this surprised pikachu face and don’t know what to say or do to help further.
I’ve even had my recent therapist tell me I’m very self aware. Which is both and good thing and bad thing. And well they said I seem to be doing great so they ended their sessions.
Any other guys feel the same?