Please help. My head is hurting really bad. I’ve just come home from a social gathering where I knew nobody, and I feel dead. I promised myself I would go out more and meet more people, but it’s just so draining. I feel like I was better today, more «normal», compared to earlier times I’ve went to gatherings. But it was still so hard. So many new people. I feel like I went in there with a mask on and it was hard to put it down. Like I had to perform. And I feel like I made mistakes. I got overstimulated, and couldn’t keep up in every conversation. I kinda felt fake, and tryhard, and bad at keeping up conversation. I’m sure others noticed too.
I’m very much an introvert but I don’t think I can do big groups anymore.
Do I just need to push past? Do I need to wear a mask all the time? Do people usually feel like performing?
Man. It’s just so much easier to be alone..