When I want to change and do something about my social life and life in general, I feel too lazy and always think back on how I wasted so much time. I still want my desire of having a nice social life, but at the same time I think, “What’s the point now if I didn’t do it before?” It's been like this for the past 5 years. I've slowly became more and more socially anxious and awkward, which has now turned into depression.