Is someone you who works with you and for you in every single ways shape and form, but just doesn’t want you.
I’ve dated men who, despite me enjoying their company and conversation, I knew that long term wouldn’t work out. That red flags were displayed that red flags displayed were colored by the rosy tint of my glasses.
But this person? Everything about us aligns. Our values, our personalities, our wants and needs for the future, the way we love and live life, even our chemistry and connection. But, he doesn’t want me. Even after two years, me moving on from his previous rejection, him coming back and us trying again with a much deeper connection— nothing came of it, but me being heartbroken and him too cowardly to speak the truth.
I hate dating. I hate the investment of getting to know someone, and seeing your life with them, but having that rug pulled from under you and having to start all over again. It’s exhausting, demoralizing, especially when you’re someone who dares with intention.
Now I have to grieve this guy again, when I should’ve just stuck to my guns and closed the door for good after he reached out.