My husband was raised by his abusive father, ignored by his alcoholic absentee mother, and played martyr so his spoiled younger brother could avoid the beatings if possible. His father systematically destroyed our marriage, and drove us apart, and the stress from the heartbreak of losing the love of his life broke his mind, and he developed schizophrenia that he struggled with. All the way until last week. It's been a year now. Since he started calming his symptoms with heroin and a put him out. He found someone else to do it with him, and beat me for interfering. He gave up on his happiness with me. It was ruined. I left town. I did not go back. This past weekend he hung himself, and no one noticed his hanging body rotting for 4 days in a fifth wheel in the very center of his father's 14 acre business that's open to the public. People walked right by him as he hung there for 4 days.
I am his wife. I am the only person who can collect his body. I want to refuse to give his ashes. I want to bury them with a tree seed in the woods on their property so they can walk right by him every day and not notice. Do you think that I should give them the ashes or do as I plan?