Please help me with this situation
My husband and I are in our 10th year of marriage we have 2 kids 4 years and 8 month old
I feel there is Nothing left between us now – my husband never feels nice about me, he is usually always very angry and irritated with me.
We don’t trust each other much
There is no conversations between us it’s just passive listening. My husband also can’t hug me or hold my hand ever – I keep clinging on him trying but he becomes very awkward and feels he can’t.
It’s been very difficult to live with absolutely no admiration love respect and care but the more difficult part is he is wanting me to be physical and only then he will be able to talk properly with me or hug me or anything.
I am ready to go hug him and sleep with him but he wants me to let loose and I can’t with my heart that’s hurt so much. When I tell him what do like in me to be physical he gets irritated and doesn’t answer and then if I cry in pain he just gets angry on me and leaves the conversation and the room.
Please help me what should I do, I have been crying everyday since 5 years (marked on my calendar)
I want to work out things with my husband I really do but him wanting me to be physical without resolving the pains given is not possible for me. He is not even ready to do couples therapy to help out situation. It’s impacting our kids now and I feel so helpless.
He is not a bad person but this physical situation is impacting us too much and obviously I know he doesn’t love me anymore. Like there is no spark no love I ever feel from him. I love you was never even said let alone I feeling it ever in last 7/8 years.