While he (30s m) went to someone. He was killed. I wasn't there for him in his final moments I am absolutely devastated.
I (30s f) will not go into further details.
I have no heart left to give.
My last bf died too, but this worse than anything I've ever felt in my life.
I can't .
I can't stop collapsing sobbing .
Not allowed to see his body, no more last goodbye
I am so so broken. Together over a decade.
But to quote our fav character in a show
-no matter what I will love you always. Rip. I will love and miss you forever. So will our kitties.
Wait for me please .
That's all anyone needs to know
How does one go on? I need words of wisdom. Please.
TLDR: bf killed. Need help. Advice. Kind words. Anything. The whole family is a wreck. Prayers or whatever.