Would make a lot of the pain I’ve gone through easier to ride out. I let myself get so invested in a girl that clearly didn’t feel the same way. We had a brief moment of mutual feelings being shared between us but even when it was over I let myself internally think it could still work. I let myself fall for this girl to the point where when reality finally hit it fucked me up mentally, and still does.
I wish I could shut off my emotions entirely and not let myself get that vulnerable over another person. I’d rather go completely cold than to go through that hell again.