I meet this guy at a bar a few weeks ago and gave him my number. We were going to meet for a date a week after, but had to cancel as he got sick and asked to reschedule which I said was fine. He said he would text when he felt better, but as it had gone over a week I decided to just check in and asked how he was feeling and if he was still interested, but he didn't answer.
Now begins all the reasons for why I hate myself and can't sleep.
After having cried myself to sleep for two days, I just couldn't make any sense of the way he had texted earlier coming of very genuine. And I had tried adding him on Facebook but nothing. But I found his friend which I had also met. Now for the bad part. I texted him asking if anything had happened or if he knew a reason as to why I were being gosthed. When I came home his friend had said he wasn't home at the moment, but would answer later, but a couple hours the guy I had been texting with suddenly texted back. He said he saw the message I sent and forgot it. Then he continued to tell me that he was going to be pretty busy this month with moving and a new job and that he was sorry to have to cancelled our plans, but that it was still cool I gave him my number. I said it was fine and if he would still be interested when he would have more time he could just tell me. And that is when I felt I had done the wrong thing, but still unsure I texted his friend that I was again sorry, but had gotten an answer and that I thought I had messed it up a bit. Obviously his friend as his friend didn't say anything.
The issue now is I hate myself. I wanna sleep, but I can't do anything or stop thinking about it. I always mess things up. I always never think things through.