This is the first time i've ever expressed these feelings anywhere because I feel so bad but conext, me (f22) and my partner (m21) have been dating for four years and we have a two year old together. Now I don't know if it was always like this and I was just blindly trying to make the relationship work because I so badly wanted a stable family for my son like I never had or if he's just like this now.
Anyways, I genuinely don't even think he likes me at this point. We barely talk or spend time together, when we do we usually end up getting into a bit of an argument. He isn't very nice to me at times, giving me a tone or making remarks that I do not appreciate and he apparently doesn't realize the way he's talking to me. Im sitting on my bathroom floor sobbing because we haven't had sex in a good minute and I was just casually talking about me getting an IUD soon and he make a remark like "Why do you need that. It's not like we have sex anyways.''
Obviously I was hurt, like yeah I know we haven't had sex in about a month but it's not like we dont??? He's been super busy with school and I've been a TIRED toddler mom. He is not a very understanding or empathetic guy. Never has been, but he's just so mean to me sometimes, that's not even the worse thing he's casually remarked to me. He tried to tell me he "didnt mean it like that." but that's always what he says.
I don't know what to do, i'm unhappy but I do love him. I'm not ready to just give up on this relationship but I feel like he could care less if I walked out the door right now. I don't know if we're still together for our child right now or what. Should I try to tell him how I feel, AGAIN or just save it. I get really anxious when it comes to conversations like this so im scared I wont word things right. He usually ends up getting defensive and then it all becomes my fault. I dont know anymore.
Thanks for listening if you've gotten far? Sincerely, a sad loney gal.