We’ve only been dating for around 3 months, but there are times I just feel like it would be so easy to break up with him. I think he’s a beautiful person and I do see and want him in my future; it’s just that everything feels easier if I think of him as someone I’m ok with losing. Another thing that soothes me is marriage. If we got married now, I’d be super chill with divorce compared to us breaking up without being married. But obviously we’re not trying to get married right now. I think that getting to know him better would also be easier as friends. It’s really hard for me to focus on the present and I keep thinking of negative scenarios like him dying, moving away, or cheating on me. I also find myself thinking that I want to treat him better than all his future girlfriends will. I don’t want us to break up though. I really want to stop this way of thinking. How can I become ok with just cherishing what we have now? Do I tell him how I feel about all of this?
TL;DR: How do I stop worrying about the future and focus on the current situation with my boyfriend?