Background: I finally lost my virginity at 33 and it seems my only two options are to die alone or stay with her.
At first I wasn’t okay with it AT ALL. Still not, obviously. She wanted to bring a guy over to MY place which I didn’t allow. I even threatened to have him arrested for trespassing if she did this.
Unfortunately I recently learned she still sleeps with other men, just not at my place. She argues that I should be grateful for what I could get (her) at 33 and a virgin. I didn’t put much thought into it until I learned almost EVERYONE I know took her side. They all agree that since I made it to 33 I probably won’t get another chance with another woman. Her words, and my parents & my grandparents agree.
And she said it won’t happen forever.
For some reason though, it is super painful to know that I can’t be enough for her even now. How to live like this for a while longer?