I feel really shitty right now. A girl I started really liking ended up having a boyfriend. It'd be one thing if she didn't do much but she was constantly starring at me. Like I would catch her constantly. Or when I would look she'd hold my gaze and even smile a lot of the time. Sometimes I look away and look back and she'd still be eyeing me and smile even more. She wasn't ever dismissive when I talked to her and was invested in the conversation. I asked her out in kind of a vague way and she said no so I stopped chasing her.
This seemed to upset her because now she would try talking to me more first since I wasn't really approaching her at all anymore. Keep in mind we where not friends before this. I've only known her for about 2 weeks at this point. She even seemed to be bothered when I would talk to other women. Eventually she started acting anxious around me and every time I caught her starting she look sad and upset.
I figured maybe I made a mistake before since I wasn't the most clear about what I wanted. I told her how I feel and said I really like her. She said she appreciates it but has a boyfriend.
It just hurts because I asked her out but it feels like she needed to draw me back in just to reject me again. I don't get it. I wasn't ever rude either I just started avoiding her. Plus if she was only wishing for a friendship what is with all the starring and jealousy?