I was dating a guy and we mutually decided to just be friends because it was never gonna work out romantically. Now I was stressed with other things including moving into a new uni house and struggling with feeling alone a lot and I just got really upset. I hated the rejection and I didn’t know how to put boundaries in place to handle the change so I just got sad. It kinda ended up in this weird loop of what if but we can’t and it was horrible. He said he wanted space (I completely respect it) but it’s like somethings clicked in my brain today knowing that being friends would him would be ok.
Now the issue is that it’s been a few days and I just want to apologise to him but I know I want to respect his space. Would it be weird to send a short letter back with his hoodie after I’ve washed it just to apologise? I really want to be friends and I know he does too but I feel wrong sending a text because he’ll see most of what it says when the notification comes through and will probably feel inclined to answer whereas a letter he can just open when he’s ready. Otherwise would a short text be ok? I feel like it’s not respecting his space but the last thing he said was ‘have a nice summer’ and I really don’t want to go separate ways to uni without having seen him again as we had loads of fun.
I still feel sad and know I couldn’t hang out with him straight away but I also want to play Xbox with and just know that he’s doing ok and knows that I’m sorry.
Edit: I also feel upset because how can he be ok with not speaking to me for ages. I know that’s probably not a valid feeling but it’s hurtful especially with the way our last hangout went