i (24f) starting seeing this guy (24m) about 3 months ago. we hit it off really well, similar interests, personalities meshed well, the whole 9 yk. the way we’ve been able to see each other has always been kind of limited as i live with my parents and his living situation is kind of nomadic.
anyways, when we’ve seen each other it’s always been easy not much thinking and i’ve always been like very excited to be around him.
we ended up having sex earlier this month and it wasn’t the best but it wasn’t terrible either. i’m usually a little more lovey after sex, but i almost felt more detached after but still like wanting to be in his energy.
we didn’t talk for like a week and then he reached out and we’ve been checking in on each other here and there.
last night we went out to a gamer bar and the vibe was just kind of quiet? i kept trying to engage in convo but it wasn’t hitting like it used to. i don’t know if it was bc i kept beating him in all the games we were playing, or if it was smth else. it almost felt like playing games with my older brother. but then he was also being playfully sexual (physical and verbal) but was unusually quiet. i even asked if he was okay later in the night and he said he was fine.
maybe he was a lot more high than what i thought and he was also drinking. or maybe i potentially killed the vibe too when i said i didn’t wanna drink but it was the truth, i was down to play some games but didnt really wanna drink.
after we finished up in there, we left and chit chatted in his car for a bit, and we actually talked about our last time together. i was honest and he was like “i can do better. think i can take another stab at it” and i agreed saying that i too would wanna take another stab at it. and he kept looking at me like he wanted to take me in the backseat.
and then as we were saying our goodbyes, he said that it was fun and we should do it again soon/link up again. we were going for a hug but then i guess i looked a little too long and went for a kiss instead and it was lowk rhythmless.
idk what do i do here…