Hello fellow redditers,
9 months ago, I have underwent a sinus pilonidalis surgery, fow those who dont know what that is it’s a cyst on coccyx that has to be surgically removed.
Since then, it is still in the process of healing and causes me few minors problems.
But lately, the main problem I have registered is the fact that I, after 19 long years of my life finally started having urges to have sex, for the first time. Some might say, why don’t I have it then?
The answer is simple, I feel like I am a bottom, both by body and spirit, but I can’t have that kind of sex since that would only worsen my healing process and I can’t neither be on top, since practically any excessive and sweaty activity can be damaging to the healing process.
Past weeks It’s been really demaging to my mental health, since I feel like masturbation is no longer that fulfilling and fun, I just do it out of my bodies need, it seems.
While I at least could start dating, it’s hard in this day and age, most people only look on body and while I am not super fat, since the surgery I cannot practically work out and have gained some weight, let’s say I’m on the slimier chubby side of people. But it still affects my self-worth, self-esteem and confidence.
I wanted to know if anyone here has any kind of advice for me how I could deal with these kind of thoughts and issues?
And please, don’t attack me saying that I’m too young for these kind of problems and sex and dating can wait.. I KNOW it can, but the fact is that I would love to fking experience some teenage relationship, no matter if sexual or romantic.