M27….I’m starting to see someone new F23. I’ll be honest, she intimidates the hell out of me. I’m a quiet and shy, autistic introvert and she’s much more extroverted, wild party type.
Last night we could have had sex and I stupidly pushed it off because I was afraid to disappoint. She just way more experienced than me. She’s been with a lot more people than me who would have also been a lot more experienced than me. I’ve had 1 sexual partner and that was the women I dated from 17 to 25. We lost our virginities together so it’s not like she brought much experience either. Maybe I’m wrong but I feel like I missed out on a lot of experience. I’m not disappointed, I just feel like maybe I’ve got a lack of skill. Me and my ex had amazing sex but we had time to learn, it was never bad but I wouldn’t say our first few times were necessarily spectacular.
I just feel a lot of pressure to be perfect and the best….and last long. I feel like with someone new I’m going to blow in 30 seconds. I know just because someone isn’t having their best sex ever doesn’t mean it still can’t be great, but when the moment comes around, I suddenly forget that.