I’ve been in a relationship with this guy for about 2 and a half years. And we’ve been in a pit of he’s not ready to commit. I personally, want to give him the odds and I want to fight for our relationship and I’m okay with waiting for him and probably marry him when I’m 30.
But he’s so engulfed with his fear and he said to me that he really love me but he don’t know what to do as he feel bad for me, he feels like I deserve someone better. He got a lot on his plate as he’s battling with depression and also struggling to build his own career and he’s afraid that he can’t make a great future for me.
I know that a lot of people already told me to just break up, and I did. We broke up about a month ago and I said I’m ready to let go of things. As we are actually still in love with each other but for months, he’s been so afraid and his own thoughts and fear eating him alive. It affected our relationship bad and I know it’s not healthy for both of us.
We had a mutual and a very sad break up but I thought to myself that maybe this day will eventually comes.
We still talk and see each other sometimes as we’re still in the same circle of friends. And a few days ago suddenly, he insist on picking me up and I thought it was quite odd. At the end of the night he hugged me tight and he cried, he cried about how he missed me and he’s so confused about every path that he takes seems so unsure. It’s like being torn of wanting to let go but also wanting to not go.
In all honesty I really think he’s a great guy, he’s the only one that’s so far been so compatible with me. And I know cutting someone that you love so dearly is so hard, but I just want to make a wise decision. I’m going to talk to him again about our circumstances because for me, if he just want to get over his fear of commitment and give it a shot I think it’s a great start.
But also I’ve been thinking on what am I supposed to do?