I’m so sick of myself, I can’t talk to people without being weird so the amount of people I can talk to while having fun and being myself is very limited but even I find that i annoy or otherwise upset the few people I talk too and I never feel fully accepted anywhere I go I’m just an annoying guy sat on the sideline making unfunny comments, I can’t talk to new people unless I meet them through a mutual friend, I can’t keep a conversation going like normal I don’t know how long it’s been since I’ve had a conversation completely free of jokes or me being stupid and trying to be funny I just want to have friends and hang out and shit. Why can other people so easily talk to you each other and even strangers why is that so difficult for me