I had an ex who i’ve been with for 6 years, and this month last year we decided to call it off. I was the dumpee. I was really struggling with my time. I was a college student with alot of deadlines and at the same time I am working/studying full time. This was my first time doing something to grow career-wise and it was my first time earning, but at the same time I was giving her the bare-minimum, I couldn’t even make time I was just so exhausted after the day of work. I had to choose between my career and my relationship. So I chose my career. 2 months after I realized I made a big mistake that I have done.
So I communicated with her, and asked her to give it another try, then I found out that she was already dating and seeing another guy. After I knew that my world plunged into despair, I wasn’t doing good in both my academics and my world. Mostly I found myself lying on my bed without will and energy to do anything. I was slacking off my work, and always miss school work. I was always waking up, in the middle of the night crying. All I could ever think of is regret. I couldn’t even blame her, no, I don’t have the right to blame her because I was the dumpee after all. Then fast forward 4 months after.
I was moving on okay, I started to rebuild myself again. Being able to kick ass on work, and in school. I took care of myself, went to the gym ( I was able to make good gains) It changed how I looked. Then started dating. I met this woman, we were a really good combo, we had alot in common plus she cooked really good. We went to alot of wholesome dates, and we enjoyed it. Some months after, I realized that I wasn’t really over my ex. And I told her about it. and there we called it off.
Sometime, this year, around January, my first ex contacted me (after months of no contact). She contacts me every week and it was unusual. Until now this month she still does. then i heard she broke up with the man (rebound jk) after me. Well I still do have feelings for her. But I don’t know what to do, I want to tell her that I still love her and I want to try again but I’m too scared of the outcome.
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**TL;DR;** : I have an ex who I want to get back with lol